Why is Summer the Worst as a Mom?

Ahh Summer…those carefree days of running through sprinklers, staying up late and roasting marshmallows, playing in the sand. These are the memories that come to mind from my childhood. Summer felt freeing as a child. Free from school. Free from the strict schedule. Free from the monotony of the routine as we vacationed to fun places. I loved summer and all the fun it brought.

Yet as a stay at home mom summer has taken on a completely different meaning. The, “YEA! No schedule!” has turned into “OH CRAP! No schedule!”. My schedule is gone and with that means my scheduled BREAKS are gone! So instead of feeling happy freedom as summer approaches I have been feeling anxiety and dread. Can you relate?

So I try to plan a few things, like vacations and camps for the kids. But this week was to be my only scheduled break. The two older boys were to be in VBS every morning and I would only have the baby. I was so looking forward to this time and was going to use it to recoup and rest a bit before having to figure out what to do with the three boys for 3 weeks before we head out of town. But then IT hit. And by IT I mean Hand Foot and Mouth Disease. If you don’t know what that is just know that it is HIGHLY contagious and you have to quarantine the kid for about 7 days. And usually as one kid starts to get better the other child gets it and you are stuck home for another 7 days. Needless to say my week did not pan out as I had hoped.

This week that I had been looking forward to for so long was now filled with figuring out logistics of keeping the boys from sharing germs, getting the oldest to his swim and VBS camp while keeping the other two at home, and dealing with a very bored 3 and a half year old and baby

SO when I tell you I kinda of lost it this week I hope you can understand why. I am drained. I have nothing left and frankly I am angry. Yes I am feeling sorry for myself. I wish I didn’t but there it is. There are those times when I can put on my big girl pants and move forward but this week was just not one of those times. I couldn’t get past my own self pity. My head feels cloudy, I am making poor choices in parenting, eating and everything else. Can you feel me mamas?

Come to Me all who are weary and heavy laden and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart and you will find rest for your soul. For my yoke is easy and my burden is light.
Matthew 11:28-30

But hope is there. God sees my affliction. It may seem trivial compared to so many other afflictions people face yet He still beckons me to come. If He is a God who sees Hagar (Genesis 16) in her misery than He can certainly see me. He knows my exhaustion. He knows my self pity. He knows my burdens and anger and every other affliction and sin I have. His love and forgiveness never ends and are never held back. He is steadfast. I long to have a steadfast spirit that doesn’t waver when the storms come. Yet I know God will restore me to His joy and peace when I come to Him with a humble heart. I lose that joy and peace so quickly when I take my eyes off of Him. I can’t sustain joyfulness on my own. I have to return to the well that never runs dry to quench my parched and drained spirit.

Create in me a clean heart and renew a steadfast spirit…restore to me the joy of your salvation and sustain me with a willing spirit.
Psalm 51:10-13

This morning I was given a gift. The gift of an uninterrupted hour or two where I could return to the well. So I came, I drank, I filled up as much as I could in hopes it will last me until I can make it back.

I pray you can make it to the well yourself as you enter into summer.

How Using Positve Discipline and The Whole Brain Child Nipped a Meltdown in the Bud

Since my last post I have been really working on parenting in a more positive way. IN fact John and I have been taking a seven week course on Positive Discipline and the Whole Brain Child.

If you haven’t heard of Positive Discipline it’s an approach to parenting that has TONS of tools to help you navigate everything from bad habits to tantrums to anything else you can think of. Their approach is respectful and although I have been using a lot of their techniques with my boys for years it has been an awesome refresher course. Plus Positive Discipline (PD) works really well with the research presented in The Whole Brain Child (WBC). [Continue reading…]

When Did My Kids Become an Inconvenience?

My daily reminder to show them love even in the midst of bad behavior

Have you ever had one of those parenting moments that just stops you in your tracks and you know you will remember this moment forever? Last week was one of those moments for me, and not in a good way. Tweet

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A Review of Naturepedic Organic Mattresses: from 5 boxes to a queen mattress


I was THRILLED to be chosen as the winner of a queen sized mattress from Naturepedic back at the ShiftCon Conference back in September! I have been wanting one of their mattresses for myself ever since I met them back in 2014 and purchased a crib mattress from their booth. My husband and I finally […]

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Treasuring the little things: God’s lessons to a young mom

“But Mary treasured up all these things and pondered them in her heart.”  Luke‬ ‭2:19‬ Today I treasured these things in my heart like Mary. I want to bundle up this morning in a bow and tuck it away like a gift to be opened later when I need a little encouragement. Maybe today you […]

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It’s My Birthday So Why am I Struggling?


It’s Valentines weekend! Not only that but it’s also my birthday and I don’t mind sharing it’s the big 35! But in all honesty this is turning out to be a difficult birthday for me. It’s been a challenging yet amazing year. Last year at this time I had a 2 week old and was […]

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My CBS News Interview on Postpartum Depression…the Emotions are Still Raw


It was an average Tuesday morning when I got the call from a fellow blogger that CBS was looking for a woman to speak about her experience with Postpartum Depression. Knowing I had written about my experience in the past she referred them to me. After a whirlwind call they were at my door two […]

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His Firsts are My Lasts

Retro modern mom - his firsts are my lasts

There’s something that happens to your perspective when you know you’re done having children. I’ve shared before what a TOUGH transition it was to three children. We knew from the moment we became pregnant with Munchkin he would be our last baby. Every first for him will be the last for me. As his first birthday […]

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Holiday video series: Kate’s Favorite Things!

HAPPY NEW YEAR!   I took most of the holidays off from posting on the blog and instead focused on a fun video series on my Facebook page. If you don’t follow me there go click that LIKE button. I post there much more often than I do here. For those who missed it here […]

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Cooking ain’t happening tonight: Where’s my SOS people?

Sometimes parenting is just hard. Not for one particular reason or even for ten. There are those days when I just feel ‘out of it’ and all I want to do is hole myself up under my covers and never emerge. Yet as a mom to young children that’s not an option. My bad mood, […]

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