Today was NOT a good day…but at least my 2 year old wipes his face

Today has NOT been a good day. It’s one of those days where by 1pm I am just proclaiming, “I am DONE with this day!” Do you feel me?

It started with a child coughing most of the night, waking up late and rushing to get the eldest to school on time. I came back home to finish getting myself, my younger two boys and the house ready for the day. For some reason I wanted to be sure the house was somewhat show ready in case I got a text from the realtor asking to show the house while at Bible Study.

After arriving 20 minutes late to preschool drop off the teacher looked at my empty hands and asked where snack was. Turns out it was my sons turn to bring snack for the entire class. *palm to forehead* I offered to run to the grocery store but they said they had plenty of snack leftovers and it was fine. Thank God! Upon arriving at bible study, late, and getting my much needed cup of coffee worship began up front and the coordinator walks up to me asking why I wasn’t up front singing with the other two ladies. *eyes widen in horror* Why yes I had completely forgotten a mic check that morning and that I was supposed to sing AT ALL! I snuck up on stage after the first song and did my best hoping I wasn’t messing them up.

After feeling like a complete failure all morning I finally get home and lay down to check my emails. Of course there is an email between my realtor and husband about making sure we get our documents to the loan officer of the home we just offered on. *pulls covers over head* One more thing I didn’t get done. After speaking with my husband and having him take that over I finally settle into a short reprieve before the kids wake up. And that’s when the bad news hits. My realtor calls to tell me the home we have been offering and counter offering on all weekend went to the other buyer. The home we were dead set on. The only home we had even considered could finally be THE home. And that’s when I say, “I am DONE with this day!”

Have you had those days? When you just want to throw in the towel and get a reset? When you can’t do anything well and you wonder why am I even putting in this work at the job of life. Let’s face it if Life were a job I would have been fired.

As I drown my sorrows in a chocolate milkshake and cheeseburger my 2 year old toddles to the kitchen, grabs a napkin off the counter, and wipes his mouth and hands.

You guys, it may not seem like a big deal to you but God stopped me dead in my tracks. He turned my self indulgent pity party eyes towards that smiling face and said, “LOOK! Look at that beautiful child I made. He’s wiping his own face! You’ve successfully taught a 2 year old to find a napkin and wipe off ketchup from his face and hands! You are teaching these boys how to be humans…humans with manners!” That’s when I remembered that only 2 minutes ago that same two year old couldn’t reach his water on a table and his big brother got it for him. Upon which this adorable little two year old says, “Yanks brudder”. The best part is this isn’t unusual.

When I am feeling like such a failure in every way God is so gracious in showing me the little ways that I am making a difference. A difference where it counts. In molding the hearts and behaviors of my boys to love each other and love the Lord.

So yes today was just all sorts of hard. Yet I will sit here and bask in the fact that my two year old wipes his own mouth and hands and says Thank You. 🙂

Big Life Changes and No More Babies

realtor signSomething happened the end of January when my youngest turned 2. It’s as if the clouds lifted and all of a sudden I had all this bandwidth I hadn’t had in a long time. My baby was no longer a baby. He was a little boy and his development took off. He is so much more independent and can even put on his own shoes (as long as they are Crocs). All you moms know how awesome of a milestone that is. 😉 I had to take a moment and grieve the realization that we are done with babies. There was a bit of sadness but also of excitement.

You see almost three years ago we were in the same place. We had decided we were done having kids and were looking forward to all the fun things we could begin doing as a couple and as a family as our boys got older. Then we got pregnant…and well we started all over again. So the last few months have been a time of entering a new phase in life. A phase I thought I was ready for three years ago. Now it has come again and I can’t tell you how excited I am about it.

With this new bandwidth I went a little crazy in the de-cluttering and organizational department. I mean I was chucking all our baby stuff, making plans to paint rooms, turned a whole room of our house into a play room,  and basically found all those areas in my house that have annoyed me for so long but I never had the time or mental energy to do anything about them. Now I do! Little did I know what I was doing was for a bigger purpose. So right as I was about to turn another bedroom into a dream closet/craft storage office space God stopped me.

You know those times when God speaks to you through many different channels all within the span of a week? It may be a friend, family member, a sermon you hear, stranger, really anything to get your attention. Well that’s kinda what happened to me.

Our plan had always been to move eventually from our current home. It only has one bathroom and for a family of five that can get pretty tight. So we had thought we would probably move in about two years. Well God decided to change our timing a bit…ok a lot. The Lord has made it very clear that it is time to move. Believe me this was SO not our plan and it still feels pretty crazy. We love our home and have put so much work into making it just the way we like it. But where God leads we want to follow.

So we are selling our home. The first home we’ve ever owned. The place we became a family of five. The backyard where we have held BBQ’s and birthday parties. No, we don’t have another home to move to yet but we know that God is preparing that place for us as we step out in faith and follow His leading. He’s asking us to trust His goodness and that His plan is WAY better than anything we could ever think of.

With that hope we list our home and pray this house that has been a shelter for us thru many a storm will be a blessing to the next family.

And if you feel so led we would covet your prayers as well. For wisdom and discernment and also for my sanity and stress level. 😉

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