How a Wild Horse Brought Me to My Knees

I read a book recently called, “Loving the Little Years” and there was one thought that has really stayed with me. The author gave the analogy of thinking of your child’s emotions like a wild horse. Putting a two year old in charge of this beast is comical and even 12 year olds are going to struggle with handling such an enormous animal. It takes a lot of practice, patience and teaching to master a wild horse. Key word here is ‘teaching.’

The other day my Little Man got very frustrated and upset as I wasn’t allowing him to have his way. This progressed into a full-on tantrum and as I picked him up he bit me REALLY hard. It took every ounce of will power to not act out and smack him back. Now this story isn’t about how I handled the situation (although I felt I handled it well) but more about what it brought up in me. I was SO ANGRY! How could he disrespect me to the point of causing me physical harm? After all I do for him! Doesn’t he know all I want is what’s best for him? Can’t he just accept this and obey me without question sometimes!? I can’t always explain the rationale behind every tiny decision I make!

My anger seethed for a few hours and even later that evening I found myself still harboring a bit of resentment. MAN this anger really gets a hold of you, doesn’t it!? But as I pondered all the self righteous thoughts I had the Lord reminded me of what I had read not too long ago. He said, “Kate, you are him! You struggle and wiggle in my grasp and sometimes you lash out and even bite me. Don’t you know I love you and want what’s best for you? Why do you fight me at every tiny request?” Once again I was humbled and brought to my knees.

I think back on how often I have pushed back and struggled with what the Lord asks of me. How often I choose my desires over His. And when the consequences set in I can even lash out in anger.

A theme that keeps coming up for me as I am studying the book of Genisis is the theme of OBEDIENCE. Abraham is asked to offer up his son Isaac and the Bible states, “So Abraham rose early in the morning and saddled his donkey, and took two of His young men with him and Isaac his son; and he split wood for the burnt offering, and arose and went to the place of which God had told him.” (Genesis 22:3). God didn’t give an explanation or His end goal. Yet Abraham obeyed without question. And he didn’t just obey, he obeyed immediately! There was no questioning God’s motive because Abraham KNEW God and trusted that He had his best interest at heart. The end result was Abraham being blessed for his obedience with God‘s provision of a ram, and a beautiful picture of the sacrifice that Jesus would make for us 2,000 years later.

Now I am not saying my son will or should always obey without question (although that would be GREAT!). I mean he is being asked to trust in a fallen human being, his mother. But this remembrance makes me want to BE a mother he can always trust in. A very smart woman once told our MOPS group that as moms of little ones we are “GOD with skin on” to them until they can learn who God is on their own.

My son shouldn’t be expected to master this beast of emotions on his own. He needs someone to come alongside him and teach him how to handle the frustration, the sadness and the anger. But most important is teaching him that when I am no longer there beside him showing him the way he has a heavenly father that will never let go and wants to guide him the rest of the way. God is asking me to teach him. And I will be blessed for my obedience.

Comments

  1. What a beautiful explanation of motherhood. In addition to the teaching, moms of little ones are also doing all the providing – lunch, a warm washcloth to the face, clean jammies, diaper changes. Another picture of how God cares for us! While it isn’t very flattering to think of ourselves as needing our pants changed, with regards to the sinful things we do sometimes without even thinking, God does clean us up ‘with the washing of water by the word.’

    Guess I better go do my bible study now!

  2. Stephanie Jensen says:

    Kate, this is my first time checking out your blog (hadn’t seen it before today, then noticed your post on Facebook!) – and I have to say – I LOVE IT!!

    Not only do I love what you posted most recently – about being blessed for our obedience in teaching and training our children how to tame their beasts! But I also just love your description of you. That really is who you are, and I love that you were able to describe it to clearly and succinctly. I’m right there with you, Mama – firmly rooted in my traditional values, and yet lovin’ my occasional glass of wine! (Or pizza & beer, as some nights may have it!) ;^ D

    Anyhow, just wanted to let you know that I appreciate you – that I admire you for who you are, and that I think God made a beautiful thing when He made You.

    Blessings to you, sister.

    Steph

  3. This is so humbling, Kate. This is such an amazing way of looking at kid’s tantrums. Thanks!

  4. great post Kate!

  5. Taylor Orsat says:

    I love this post Kate, thank you SO much!

  6. This is a post that every mother should read because it is so humbling. We tend to forget that as our children can be to us, so are we to our Heavenly Father, and how does he react to us? With anger or malice? No, but with loving guidance. Is it easy… NO. WAY. Thank you for encouraging me in my faith, my friend!

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  2. […] Loving the Little Years – This is another book I have recommended more times than I can recall. Written by a mother of five kids under five she is truly in the trenches! Each chapter is a short easy read that provides tips, insights and encouragement to young moms who just want to know a better way to parent. I found one of her chapters on toddlers emotions so inspiring I wrote How a Wild Horse Brought Me to My Knees. […]

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