Last weekend was Mother’s Day and as per tradition I went out with my mom friends Saturday night to celebrate. We ended up going to see Mom’s Night Out starring Sarah Drew and Patricia Heaton. I must say I was not expecting much as I am more of an action movie girl but I had heard such great reviews from other women that we agreed to check it out.
Within the first 10 minutes of the film I was totally stressed out for this poor mother of three. She was trying to do it all and floundering. A pivotal moment was while she was folding laundry with her husband and said, “I always wanted to be a mom, marry an amazing man and raise our family. I am living my dream. So why am I not happy?”
What mother has not had that thought? Maybe we haven’t all said it out loud but we’ve all thought it at one point in our lives. I should be grateful for this amazing life! I am so immensely blessed so why do I feel this way!!!???
Now let’s back up and let me share that this has been a difficult past few weeks for me personally. The reasons are unimportant but the lies I was listening to and believing about myself were brought to light in this movie.
- I am NOT enough.
- I am a FAILURE as a mom, wife and Christian.
- I can’t be used of God if I still struggle with sin.
- My worth comes from my ability to be PERFECT.
How many of you have felt this way? I was believing that I needed (and could achieve) perfection! How silly is that!? Believing the lie that I had to be perfect before I could help others. If that were true there would never be any mothers!
I always thought I was such a confident person but I let that confidence make me lazy. The Bible says to “Be sober of spirit, be on the alert. Your adversary, the Devil, prowls around like a roaring lion seeking someone to devour.” (1 Peter 5:8) I was not on the alert and I let the Devil get a foothold in my thought life. I felt so overwhelmed and unhappy. How could I proclaim God’s grace is sufficient for me when I didn’t feel it? I was failing every single day and I couldn’t find a way out. I cried out to the Lord, I fought against my trial, attempting to claw my way out. Yet nothing seemed to work.
Then a powerful reminder came in the form of Sunday’s sermon on Isiah 40:27-31. When we are under trial our natural inclination is to try and get out from under it. But we need to let God remove the trial, in HIS time. Only then will we get the intended benefits.
“Yet those who wait for the Lord will gain new strength; they will mount up with wings like eagles, they will run and not grow tired, they will walk and not become weary.” Isaiah 40:31
“After you have suffered for a little while, the God of all grace, who called you to His eternal glory in Christ, will Himself perfect, confirm, strengthen and establish you.” 1 Peter 5:10
I wasn’t trusting that God would eventually remove the trial or subside my struggles. I was trusting in my own pride and confidence to make me righteous and perfect.
The climactic moment in the film came when the Sarah Drew’s character was sitting in the police station lamenting about her life to a tatted up biker named Bones. Instead of judgment she receives compassion from a very unexpected source. Bones shares that before he went to sleep his mom would always tell him that God loves him and would NEVER stop pursuing him. He is always there with arms open wide looking for you to turn towards him.
Thank you Lord for pursuing me. Thank you that you are faithful even when I am not. And thank you for my struggles, for my suffering. I need to be reminded to turn towards you and rest in your grace and strength. YOU are MORE than enough.